It''s father's day! but seems everyone were still stick on their normal life, nothing special here
was sitting in Starbucks that located at MALURI PGRM now...
when i came out, i see something real gross that nearly make me vomit out the milk i drank no longer ago.
i saw three little duckling with yellow fur surrounded by flies
it means its dead!
wondering "how can those litt duck appear themselves in the parking lot?" and "why are they dead"
u know their bodies was kemet lying at the middle of the road, 3 of them lying in 3 different points and i nearly step on it
there must be some unethical owner who kept them as pet but threw them away after they are dead.
this should be a pending post...cant upload picture again
where are u my dearest cable?
night time,
dad bought us to THE SHIP for dinner
to celebrate my b'day and also his own day i guess
haha...
feel really disappointed with it
its been a long time ago after the previous visit
surprisingly the price were cheap...i mean, why ice lemon tea are just selling at rm4+?
what i thought was much more higher
and the environment was super pack! air condition was lousy! food can get in normal restaurant!
gosh! time really brought it down!
i swear i never visit it again!
note: its THE SHIP at bukit bintang area
everyday cant really sleep early...it must be after midnight or morning.
sighs...having big big dark circle stamp on my eyes
maybe I'm worrying to much in these day
I'm almost 20...this is what in my mind everyday before i sleep and once i open my eye
why 20's sounds so horrible to me but not others?
Sunday, June 21, 2009
U LET ME FEEL "HELL"
news passby to my ears again eventhough we have no more relationship
i was like being told but also being kept from the frozen part
knowing some, unknowing some
the feels of waiting was like waiting for death
its same as dragging me to hell
u know when u msg me that kinda msg
i hate u more then i hate him
feel like screwing u up immediately
call u, u don't ans and ask me to wait!
honestly i was almost send out !@#^&* in the msg
WTF!
pls just let him be, don't ever tell me about him
its time for us to get rid of this
are we suppose to? cause i am ready for it, how bout u?
what i mad about u is every single time i wanna let it be, u drag me inside again!
why must u being so cruel to me?
to all peeps...pls forget who the hell gf i am in the past
stop telling me!
i feel so uncomfortable with this kinda life
when I'm having a FB, someone told me oh u are...oh ur ex
when I'm in msn, someone told me that saw my ex in which pic...
when I'm sleeping, someone msg me my ex...
when I'm yamcha-ing, someone call and tell ur ex...
blah blah blah~
what i angry n piss off is because not i care about him, is u guys care about him but don't care about me, ur fren feelings
is he that famous or i am?
am i ur fren? i hope u say yes
i was like being told but also being kept from the frozen part
knowing some, unknowing some
the feels of waiting was like waiting for death
its same as dragging me to hell
u know when u msg me that kinda msg
i hate u more then i hate him
feel like screwing u up immediately
call u, u don't ans and ask me to wait!
honestly i was almost send out !@#^&* in the msg
WTF!
pls just let him be, don't ever tell me about him
its time for us to get rid of this
are we suppose to? cause i am ready for it, how bout u?
what i mad about u is every single time i wanna let it be, u drag me inside again!
why must u being so cruel to me?
to all peeps...pls forget who the hell gf i am in the past
stop telling me!
i feel so uncomfortable with this kinda life
when I'm having a FB, someone told me oh u are...oh ur ex
when I'm in msn, someone told me that saw my ex in which pic...
when I'm sleeping, someone msg me my ex...
when I'm yamcha-ing, someone call and tell ur ex...
blah blah blah~
what i angry n piss off is because not i care about him, is u guys care about him but don't care about me, ur fren feelings
is he that famous or i am?
am i ur fren? i hope u say yes
WHAT CHANGE YOU THE MOST WHEN U ARE TURNING TO 20TH?
one more days to go...i will be stepping in to the age of 20
i don't feel happy for that, i just don't know why?
confusing here, can anyone tel me why?
when i was in the age of 19, everything seems easy and smooth
i will be happy to say that "I'm only 19", but now...i will say it as "I'm 20 already"
that's the different! only and already
now...i have to made many hard decision in my life
when i was done with it, rise another...recycling and never stop.
i know~that's what we called life!
but just...now...it let me be afraid of every single little thing!
I'm getting pussy and pussier to make decision, even in a small stuff
i don't know what i really need for my breakfast, i don't know which shoes suit me most...blah~
for the big decision...
i really don't know how far i can go?
how tough i can be?
how many things i can scarified for it?
the last...how right am i to made the decision?
the sickest part is
what am i gonna study for my future?
i know sometimes what u study will not be applied on your job, but i still tend to stick with it
i wanna be a host, that can eat around, travel around to share with the public where and whats nice, just like now I'm having a blog to share and hear, to post the picture of food and nice place.
but most "humans" tell me that "mass comm sibeh no use de, everyone studying that"
for this comment, I'm thinking it is it because of this course is so freaking flexible that can let u be whoever u want and what job u seek for might be unavailable, u still can go for others.
my second choice is law, the one that i worry most
haha, but everyone say it "sibeh got use", and also "very hard de worr"
mostly tell me that their fren who studying law don't even have time for fun
gosh! i cant stand that!!!
but but but~~we should fight for our future if u want it to be brighter right?
but but but~~if i cant win that, the money will be drown...daddy gonna kill me for throwing his face
u know, every relative likes to chit chat bout their kids stuff such like whats his/her result, what course...blah blah blah
so the kids will be the victim...pity little ones~
we have to do our best for our future and and and maintain our parents face
maybe u might not agree what i have said..but in my side "it is like that"
so...mass comm or law?
now, turn to the relationship part
when we was young we thought we knew love therefore we sacrificed everything just for love, we brave our self cause love
we leave on our studies, we argue with parents cause relationship, we....(think what u've done)
in the end, now we grew up
but it seems that we don't know what is love anymore
every growing ppl asking "what is love?" aren't they? are u one of it?
it seems that we become pussy when we grow up, we will not sacrifice ourselves for love anymore cause we were unclear about the payback.
therefore, it seems like finding a truelove is hard because both individual are not able to give all of their heart out. u were waiting me, i am waiting for u...right?
when we were young...(oops, it doesn't mean that I'm old now, is just growing older a bit)
to get in a relationship is so easy, all u need is love
i love u and u love me, that's all!
but now...do u realise that it is not that simple as before?
it include sincerity, honesty, financial, blah...(based on individual needs)
some may not even care that is it love in between, just if they go safe go smooth in the relationship, everything solve. so there came a family floats out when the agreement is certified
i still remember last time...my wanted bf list
i don't feel happy for that, i just don't know why?
confusing here, can anyone tel me why?
when i was in the age of 19, everything seems easy and smooth
i will be happy to say that "I'm only 19", but now...i will say it as "I'm 20 already"
that's the different! only and already
now...i have to made many hard decision in my life
when i was done with it, rise another...recycling and never stop.
i know~that's what we called life!
but just...now...it let me be afraid of every single little thing!
I'm getting pussy and pussier to make decision, even in a small stuff
i don't know what i really need for my breakfast, i don't know which shoes suit me most...blah~
for the big decision...
i really don't know how far i can go?
how tough i can be?
how many things i can scarified for it?
the last...how right am i to made the decision?
the sickest part is
what am i gonna study for my future?
i know sometimes what u study will not be applied on your job, but i still tend to stick with it
i wanna be a host, that can eat around, travel around to share with the public where and whats nice, just like now I'm having a blog to share and hear, to post the picture of food and nice place.
but most "humans" tell me that "mass comm sibeh no use de, everyone studying that"
for this comment, I'm thinking it is it because of this course is so freaking flexible that can let u be whoever u want and what job u seek for might be unavailable, u still can go for others.
my second choice is law, the one that i worry most
haha, but everyone say it "sibeh got use", and also "very hard de worr"
mostly tell me that their fren who studying law don't even have time for fun
gosh! i cant stand that!!!
but but but~~we should fight for our future if u want it to be brighter right?
but but but~~if i cant win that, the money will be drown...daddy gonna kill me for throwing his face
u know, every relative likes to chit chat bout their kids stuff such like whats his/her result, what course...blah blah blah
so the kids will be the victim...pity little ones~
we have to do our best for our future and and and maintain our parents face
maybe u might not agree what i have said..but in my side "it is like that"
so...mass comm or law?
now, turn to the relationship part
when we was young we thought we knew love therefore we sacrificed everything just for love, we brave our self cause love
we leave on our studies, we argue with parents cause relationship, we....(think what u've done)
in the end, now we grew up
but it seems that we don't know what is love anymore
every growing ppl asking "what is love?" aren't they? are u one of it?
it seems that we become pussy when we grow up, we will not sacrifice ourselves for love anymore cause we were unclear about the payback.
therefore, it seems like finding a truelove is hard because both individual are not able to give all of their heart out. u were waiting me, i am waiting for u...right?
when we were young...(oops, it doesn't mean that I'm old now, is just growing older a bit)
to get in a relationship is so easy, all u need is love
i love u and u love me, that's all!
but now...do u realise that it is not that simple as before?
it include sincerity, honesty, financial, blah...(based on individual needs)
some may not even care that is it love in between, just if they go safe go smooth in the relationship, everything solve. so there came a family floats out when the agreement is certified
i still remember last time...my wanted bf list
- higher then me half a head
- buy me choc when I'm in period
- love me more than i love him
- got to be handsome or involve in any school team
- must have the same interest or hobbies
but now, this list had been change or i can say remove to replace with
- higher then me at least one head or above (cause now i like to wear super high heels)
- give me the world greatest thing and experience that i ever had
- must plan and saving for future
- always brought me knowledge that i might not know
- always involve his and mine parents in that relationship
- non smoker!
- have the different interest and hobbies so that we could exchange and expand our vision
- always support me when I'm in diet, therefore he must be a great eater
- can always join my gang, cause i don't wanna loose my fren while I'm having a BF
- teach me to be a better human in the way i can accept
- always alert how i feel and let me know what his up to
- photogenic? xoxo...
- besides...a litt secret, i have super bad tempered and evil side, so he must be able to tolerate with this
- believe me...its UNLIMITED
so now u can see...when ppl growing up...it change allot~
so...do comment me and tell me what is changing in ur life...wanna kepoh to understand myself more and made the right decision.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
WHAT IS "dear" FOR?
I'm tiring...tiring that i doesn't belongs to who and been kept calling by others "dear"
it suppose to be a friendly name that ppl used to called their friends and buddies
but i don't seems this happen on me
i don't feel they are my buddies or i am theirs buddies
i don't know them for long so do they
this "name" was hidden another meaning that i don't feel comfortable with
i told most of them many times that i have a name and its TIFFANY why don't you just call my name? end up, is the same. in the msg or the conversation..."dear, xxxxxxxx......"
don't u guys know or feel that i am so sooo uncomfortable with it?
don't u realise that i get speechless after that?
u guys just don't understand but just acting selfish-ly
or maybe u all understand it but u don't care how i feel...that's rude!
i am not that open-minded i admit
but I'm friendly enough to call u dear when the time is reach
but i do like make things clear like water
so no one get misunderstand and hard feelings in the end
i demand for love and relationship, but not miserable ones...
too all beloved "dear"
by ur "dear"
it suppose to be a friendly name that ppl used to called their friends and buddies
but i don't seems this happen on me
i don't feel they are my buddies or i am theirs buddies
i don't know them for long so do they
this "name" was hidden another meaning that i don't feel comfortable with
i told most of them many times that i have a name and its TIFFANY why don't you just call my name? end up, is the same. in the msg or the conversation..."dear, xxxxxxxx......"
don't u guys know or feel that i am so sooo uncomfortable with it?
don't u realise that i get speechless after that?
u guys just don't understand but just acting selfish-ly
or maybe u all understand it but u don't care how i feel...that's rude!
i am not that open-minded i admit
but I'm friendly enough to call u dear when the time is reach
but i do like make things clear like water
so no one get misunderstand and hard feelings in the end
i demand for love and relationship, but not miserable ones...
too all beloved "dear"
by ur "dear"
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
N.O.T.I.C.E
My camera cabel was missing
HATE HATE HATE
i duno where it hide at
so for this period i cant really upload my pictures and previous post that comes with picture
sighx!!!
wait till i get one new one ya~~
wait for me!
HATE HATE HATE
i duno where it hide at
so for this period i cant really upload my pictures and previous post that comes with picture
sighx!!!
wait till i get one new one ya~~
wait for me!
SOMETIMES IS TIMES
"sometimes is better to cut of the contact, so that u can stop thinking of him"
told by mister DYLAN
i did it...as i say.as i dream.as i wish
for so many days i asked myself "is this the best way"
and now i know i wont be wrong this time
ppl who makes me sad and hurting me non stop
i should get rid of it!
i know
told by mister DYLAN
i did it...as i say.as i dream.as i wish
for so many days i asked myself "is this the best way"
and now i know i wont be wrong this time
ppl who makes me sad and hurting me non stop
i should get rid of it!
i know
- u likes me but u dont want to be in relationship
- u wants to own me but u dont want to get back with me
- u jealous when u heard i got a new bf
- u want alots of freedom, therefore u use ur family, job as a excuses to tell me u cant be with me
- u cant flirt when u got me, or else u feel guilty
- now u say that im the one u want most, u cant find others, but actually we were to used to each other, because we together for quite long, therefore we cant find another ones
- u were used to kiss me, hug me, care me, once u stop, u will adapt to that life, but once u find another her, i will not appear in ur mind again
- everything is possible, only u know the excuses u were giving
- u havent got over me yet
u should know now! is either u be with me or dont ever talk to me. I really cant stand that. I miss u so much in the same time i hope so to get rid over u. And i guess i find my mister right, i dont want to dissapoint anyone cause of my stubborness to the past. LET ME FREE, CAUSE FROM NOW, I WONT FORCE U TO BE WITH ME ANYMORE, IM LETTING U FREE. I guess this is what u dream for since the break up. Now u can have ur freedom back mister jack.
Maybe we were just to confidence to ourself, therefore this makes us over valued ourself. To avoiding this, we must always look back after each step we take, there are always a signal for u.
Sometimes i miss u, sometimes i cried for u. But the time had reach, is me to letting go no matter how much i love u, how i dont hope to let u go. because this takes time, to over this.
The rainbow takes time to appear after rain.
p/s: remember what u say, keep holding tight and move forwards
AS I WISH AS I DREAM
this sounds of the steps moving forward
ppl pass by ,stop by and leaving
some fell for the past, some seek for the future
some choose to drown in the middle
this time i wave my hand to u
saying bye
for the past and hello future
and this time u finally understand
u wave ur hand back towards me
saying "as u wish"
as i wish as i dream
leaving u at the past of my life
never needle it up cause i prefer natural heal
i dream of wanted u back, but u dont
i wish u leave me alone and stay away from my life from now till ever
AS I WISH.AS I DREAM
ppl pass by ,stop by and leaving
some fell for the past, some seek for the future
some choose to drown in the middle
this time i wave my hand to u
saying bye
for the past and hello future
and this time u finally understand
u wave ur hand back towards me
saying "as u wish"
as i wish as i dream
leaving u at the past of my life
never needle it up cause i prefer natural heal
i dream of wanted u back, but u dont
i wish u leave me alone and stay away from my life from now till ever
AS I WISH.AS I DREAM
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Hello church
whoopie!
just receive an invite frm fren
to join him going to church tomolo
i bet that is my another new experience
im soooo excited now
but kinda worry i cant wake in the morning
it was anout 9yrs ago the last time i went to church ler
hohoho...
nites!
got to get to bed or else i will be show off as panda in church
just receive an invite frm fren
to join him going to church tomolo
i bet that is my another new experience
im soooo excited now
but kinda worry i cant wake in the morning
it was anout 9yrs ago the last time i went to church ler
hohoho...
nites!
got to get to bed or else i will be show off as panda in church
IDIOTIC
I was awake
so suddenly by a weird dream
i suppose to sleep till the next noon frm 7pm since i dont really have a nice sleep during my exams day
but after that dream...i cant
keep on hunt me down thinking non stop
it was about him again
how pathethic rite?
so suddenly by a weird dream
i suppose to sleep till the next noon frm 7pm since i dont really have a nice sleep during my exams day
but after that dream...i cant
keep on hunt me down thinking non stop
it was about him again
how pathethic rite?
in that dream
i ans his call...he was talking to me asking whether im good anot or bla
but then i feel weird
he was talking but he breath sounds loud and suffering
at the last he says "i love u, please remember"
then he hang
later on his friend call me
his buddies gf called actually
tell me not to mention about the break up
i ask why? i said i dint mention at all
and i ask what happen to him, why he sounds like suffering?
they said nothing but i kept feeling weird
then they hang up
=end=
i was thinking what was that dream about?
and sudd i related it to those drama
when ppl have those dream, its a sign of disaster coming
stupiak me call him in the middle of the nite of 2.04am
he ans...background sound was obviously in clubbing mood
im not suppose to worry
idiot i call myself facing the laptop screen
thats the reflection of idiot gal!!
Sunday, June 7, 2009
H.O.L.A---H.A.L.O
hey peeps, due to the final exam im facing now
i will be unable to upload and update my bloggie
or else i got to sacrifice my time to studies and u will see me unable to graduate in this year
LOL...i bet i wont! I wana graduate and continue my studies...
hmnn...law or masscom better?
if law...buisness law or those who fight for justice in court?
ofcz, it will take my 6-9yrs of pretty period away!
comment pls...
lastly...
please pray for me and wish me all the best looi~
eventhough im lazeee till the maximum but i still deserve that rite?
once im done with my final, i'll promise u guys to stick my ass infront the laptop day till nite just to upload and updated all the post.
there will be more better if i did upload something interesting and longer and sincerely compare with the shortest, rushing in time, and talking crapx with not complete rite?
anyway~wish me luck!
and muackxxx
u guys did let me noe that my blog is in waiting list too~
i never knew that till now!
thx budd!
GTG! arghh...i hope i can stay longer
buey~
i will be unable to upload and update my bloggie
or else i got to sacrifice my time to studies and u will see me unable to graduate in this year
LOL...i bet i wont! I wana graduate and continue my studies...
hmnn...law or masscom better?
if law...buisness law or those who fight for justice in court?
ofcz, it will take my 6-9yrs of pretty period away!
comment pls...
lastly...
please pray for me and wish me all the best looi~
eventhough im lazeee till the maximum but i still deserve that rite?
once im done with my final, i'll promise u guys to stick my ass infront the laptop day till nite just to upload and updated all the post.
there will be more better if i did upload something interesting and longer and sincerely compare with the shortest, rushing in time, and talking crapx with not complete rite?
anyway~wish me luck!
and muackxxx
u guys did let me noe that my blog is in waiting list too~
i never knew that till now!
thx budd!
GTG! arghh...i hope i can stay longer
buey~
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