Thursday, December 31, 2009

The Truth Behind The Story

I don't speak all the time while my gf blog getting spam there is a reason. A reason which i think she is tough and calm to face all this shit and it doesn't affect any of our life. Even When Bell get spam, i did nothing until i cant stand to see her emo and hurt and the spammer getting more and more over. Now I'm here is because i cant stand the bitch anymore. What she did she never said, but all bout ONLY ME as you see "surface". It isn't about i cant stand with her words which is that sharp but is for HER- TIFFANY, I'm blogging for the very first time.



Please note too! This had nothing to do with Tiff, i had her FB password so here am i...with a bump of luck. And Tiff, REMAIN THIS.




Yes, i fool her. And everything come in a reason why i do such stupid thing which i thought i could hurt her but it actually hurting the beloved one right now.





Before i met her (Tiffany), i want her back so badly and honestly i couldn't forget her (Bell). Then, i met her, a girl which would never give me black face for no reason in a sudden and wont blame for little thing like her even though shes stubborn and hot tempered. She (Bell) will scold me for reason like she cant find cloths to club and most of the cloths has been wore and shown in the picture. She will give me a black face when that time i have no transport to drive her here and there. She will force me to dress and style my hair nicely even we are just going out to some mall or club for a short while. She said, all the readers know who's her bf and i can't really wear that "cin cai" Even a cap to cover the unstyle hair also can't. Pathetic enough?




To you it might be, for me I'm ok.



The most pathetic thing is she had affair with another guy and run back to me.
ONCE?
NO, but TWICE.




First, she fall out of the lace and in love with a DJ Mr. E. That time, she was actually in relationship with me. She told me when the guy kiss on her forehead she felt damn sweet. What was your feel if your guy or gal told you this? After this she broke up immediately with me and that's what you guys saw the first time she mention bout our broke up at her blog for the very first time.





Later on, i beg her back...and i success. I felt damn happy but i also found out she came back to my arms were actually she heard bout that DJ was a player and this is told by her to me. What will you think?





Few months later...not more than 6 month




Then, another guy appear. Jonathan. They kept messaging with each other even though she's right beside me. When i found out that her inbox contain 200+ of message from that guy, she just told you that THEY ARE JUST FRIEND. Just that night, she give me a very warmth hug and she tole me I love you that she never did so for so long time. 1 weeks later she decided to dump me again. Then we patch back on the next Saturday and AGAIN SHE DUMP ME AND SUNDAY NIGHT again which in the same week. She told me that she's tired with relationship as the reason of broke up. Do you really believe that she dump me because that she want me to be a better person as you saw at her blog post?




When i tried to ask her back once again...




Well this time more suck. She had sex with this guy and she admit to me and ask me to let her go not to disturb her anymore. She told me "She's not that pure and innocent anymore like last time, so just get rid of it." This happen before i get into another relationship. When i really get into new relationship with her, there she pop up at my house using a reason which is to return me all the present i give to her after i told her i choose Tiff. I was wondering, if you are so not into me anymore, why you gotta send it to me so purposely and actually ask someone drive you here all the way? Cant you just throw away? Since you said it was your blog you can write whatever you want, and you should also know those were all yours? WTH you giving me back and let me see your face "accidentally"? LOL.




Indeed she tell me loads of stories that day and kept flash back all the memories we use to had before when returning me the gift from me. Why she did so if she was REALLY JUST TO RETURNING THE GIFT? I cried, it was a wonderful memory but also i cried because when you try to grab me back again, you said you had sex with him were just a lie? And then you admit again you did slept with him, you said i have the rights to know that what you had actually did? What's all about this? But how about losing the 1st year anniversary gift from me? Its not something really expensive but it's a ODM watch which also took my time to save for it. Don't it seems meaningful to keep it properly? You tell me. I did bought Tiff a necklace from night market before and it only cost Rm10 because she wanted it so much even though i said I'll buy her a better quality from some shops. She claimed she don't need that and surprisingly she cherish it more than i expect. When the fake diamond drop, her emotions will affect by that cheap thing and blame herself for not protecting it well.





Yeap, when my birthday i cant really make up my mind and I'm still miserable between love and memory. But when i make my decision once again, ask you not to came to my party what you told me? You did nothing, you just wanna see your friends and gathering here. I even yell at you i could remember clearly NOT TO COME. Ok, lastly you did came. I'm not suppose to shame you in front of your friend that's why i dint ask you to leave. That's is the reason she left. Not because she's coward but to full fill your childish behaviour that you thought its your party but she was actually the gf of the birthday boy. She came back after you left, in the other day you call her after my birthday? Telling her i hug you? Owh god why don't you tell her that you sang to me while I'm drunk? If you tell her that honestly I'm sure that she will trust you and leave me as you wish. Too bad, you don't dare to tell her you were treating me good but telling her i lie to her and i treat you damn good. What's your motive bitch?





Yes, I'm giving hope to you once and twice and etc, but it wont work with one sided. Surprisingly, a girl with me for 2 years had no idea where I'm staying all this while until we broke she only found out where i lived by her own. I wont see her asking me for supper ONLY when we are in relationship for 2years before that but after broke up she came all the way driving from Serdang to Setapak by her own. Not to say she got her licence that's why she do so. Well, she can say in that way i don't mind.





But when you are people gf, did you tried not to contact you bf for the whole day? And your bf got no idea with what the gf is doing? YES, SHE DID. if i don't call her she would never find me or something. I have no idea what she's doing, no idea where she is until the second i call. Great right? Why I'm blaming this right now? No, I'm not, she's changing. From the very first year she were still the BELL i knew, until the second year...don't feel like mention but her readers should know if they had followed her blog for the past two year. How her lifestyle turn to...You read it your own. I don't judge.





The gift...i bought it after we broke up no long when I'm walking alone at MID VALLEY. That time i was planning to get her back with it and buying her purple roses that she love. Last, i dint do so.





That's why the present i kept till now and decided to present to her on her birthday. It was an end...for 3 of us. Its not the matter of the price, but its the matter of the heart. The present was buying for her at first, so why cant i give it to her even its expensive? Am i suppose to transfer to Tiff just because that is expensive? I can sure that she wont LOVE IT SO. Not because of the transferring but she don't love things that is unrealistic like flowers and decoration stuff. Plus, a ex was always a ex, she did together with me for 2 years plus. I still loved her as much as before but the love transfer from gf bf to kinda sisterly care love. No matter what she did, there is nothing to argue and fight for now, it was a past and now it was 2010. People should look forward not backwards.




Wanted her to put the gift on the piano doesn't means anything ex ordinary like what you guys think, but it does had a meaning. I want her to remember if she ever get hurts... there is still a friend like me who will be there. 2years of relationship doesn't just end like that once we broke but will continue as friendship.




As fact, she did not mention that i will wait her to come back. As fact, I'm really waiting her to come back, as the first Isabella i knew when we first met, as what i used to know. But people live to grow, there is not a way to stop her from growing as the way she wanted. Every people has their own life, included me.





Now...i admit i did so many thing wrongly for both of the girl. I wanted to revenge so much before but it brings another side into tears. I'm wrong, I'm sorry, I'm glad that you can still forgive me.






Happy New Year everyone!




To you, i will did what i promise you under the fireworks. Take it as a promise.
I love you.



This might lead to a war again but for me its a end im bringing.

It was the first and also the last.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

TAGGED BY SANDREA

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage : Milo
2. Last phone call : Bubu Sun
3. Last text message : Bubu Sun
4. Last song you listened to : Tick Tock
5. Last time you cried : 26th Dec


HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice : Yeap
7. Been cheated : Often
8. Kissed someone & regretted it : YES!!! And it was my first damn kiss!
9. Lost someone special : my grandma and a childhood friend
10. Been depressed : yeap, all the while
11. Been drunk and threw up : Not after Merdeka Eve

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. White
13. Pink
14. Purple


THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend : yes, its a normal thing when u change environment, if u dont...muahahah
16. Fallen out of love : that happen...
17. Laughed until you cried : just yesterday, fight with the sister, she is stronger even she's 10
18. Met someone who changed you : loads! BF, friends and parents
19. Found out who your true friends were : i were been train not to trust friend
20. Found out someone was talking about you : it happen all the time
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list : my Bf are in my friend list too. Does it count?
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life : i dont count
23. How many kids do you want? : 1 girl and 1 boy it will be perfect
24. Do you have any pets : before, yes
25. Do you want to change your name : no
26. What did you do for your last birthday : set a new aim for the rest of the year
27. What time did you wake up today : 11am woke by him! I should be sleeping till 3pm
28. What were you doing at midnight last night : chatting on the phone
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for : people who let me wait, i got no patience and hot tempered
30. Last time you saw your Mother : 30mins ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life : self esteem, habits
32. What are you listening to right now : cafe world...nom nom nom
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom : nope
34. What's getting on your nerves right now : im peace now, nothing...i guess
35. Most visited web page : facebook, twitter, blogspot, hotmail, GSC
36. Whats your real name : Tan Mei Yi
37. Nicknames : Tiffany(friends), duck duck(family), Bii and pig (BF)
39. Zodiac sign : Cancer, im like a mother
40. Male or female : female.
41. Elementary? : Tadika Yuder
42. Middle School? : SJK (C) Lai Meng
43. High school/college? : Chong Hwa Independent High School / Taylors
44. Hair colour : Lavender red/ brown
45. Long or short : breast lower
46. Height : 163cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone? : It happen before i fall in love
48: What do you like about yourself? : stubborn enough, hot tempered enough that's why no one dare to bully me. Last, easy go happy girl
49. Piercings : 5 on the ears, now regretted, i never wear earrings on all of the hole
50. Tattoos : planning to got one, but due to what im working, have to postpone and postpone till i really step out of this.
51. Righty or lefty : righty


FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: not yet, i guess it will happen when the day i give birth???
53. First piercing: 6yrs old, my aunt took me to Poh Kong
54. First best friend : my neighboor
55. First sport you joined : Badminton
56. First vacation : Singapore when i was 6
58. First pair of trainers: -


RIGHT NOW :
59. thinking something more simpler than 1+1 = : my brain is not functioning now
60. Drinking : Milo
61. I'm about to : move my ass out for some food perhaps movie
62. Listening to : Tv sounds
63. Waiting to : be motivate and get ready


YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? : yeap, i want kids caling me MAMA~
65. Get married? : Thats all in my plan. MUST DO IT!
66. Career : You guys must be guessing model right? Too bad! Im not! What im working now were just a way to earn fast cash with what i had now. Actual career were planning to be host for cusine and travelling tv shows.


WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes : Eyes without the eye bags and dark circles
68. Hugs or kisses : hug and kisses, im greedy
69. Shorter or taller : taller
70. Older or younger : not really a matter as the heart is happy
71. Romantic or spontaneous : spontaneous romantic. definitely a BOOM~
72. Nice stomach or nice arms : can i say butt?
73. Sensitive or loud : sensitive and loud
74. Hook-up or relationship : relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant : bad...im both!


HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger : Never ever
77. Drank hard liquor : yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts : Nope
79. Sex on first date : NO, thats the most stupid thing if a girls did that
80. Broken someone's heart : yes...but i guess he grows after that.
82. Been arrested : No
83. Turned someone down : Yes, when im emo, i will talk shits without using brain to think
84. Cried when someone died : yes
85. Fallen for a friend? : yes, because i prefer every R/S start from friend


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself : sometime, i dont
87. Miracles : prefer coincidence
88. Love at first sight : yes, but still will remain as friend
89. Heaven : guess so
90. Santa Claus : nonono~
91. Kiss on the first date : NO
92. Angels : Hmnnn~



ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/ boyfriend at a time : Yes
95. Did you sing today? : Nope
96. Ever cheated on somebody's relationship? : YES
97. If you could go back in time, how far would go : form 1
98. If you could pick a day from last year,what would it be? : March 5,6,7...
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? : yes, when u think too far and predict what will happened at the end
100. Posting this as 100 truths? : yes!



Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.


I Tagged:
Janice Phua, Jon YKT, Serene, BeYung, Shyuan, Jian Xiang, Allysa, Yori, Lone Wong, Big Show, Ming Bing, Leng Lui, Karyi, Mian Cherng, Neoh, Jing Xuan (SHUM), Jessica Pan, Peggy Low, Cheryl, Jia Wen

Saturday, December 26, 2009

那枚戒指


手上总是带着两枚戒指
曾经的曾经,他也像他一样,很讨厌,也不明白
对我而言,其实那俩枚戒指以谈不上什么挂念爱恋之说

而是,一个感激
感激他曾我为了我,许下了那么一杀哪的承诺


他们不明白,爱和感激总有那么点点的差距




送我戒指最多的,是那个我曾经最恨的,也是那曾经让我爱得他好深
迟迟不肯醒来的那个
还记得,4个月 时
他送了我个红玫瑰戒指,我不爱花
不是因为我真的不爱,而是我不忍心看着它凋谢
他知道吧
也或许,他实际,但不代表不懂浪漫
只是念书的时候,金钱都得看紧些
可以的,我们都用来吃


接着,忘了几个月了
我看中了长着天使翅膀的戒指
他买了
那时我每天都得戴在手上才觉得安心
哪怕被没收,我也照带上学去
中华嘛~比起他
那时,他是一切
它是便宜货


接着接着,我们吵架了
闹得好严重,在悬崖边
差点回不了头,因为那个戒指
我们更相爱了
它,刻着“喜喜”
看见他,我们更明白。。。
走下去的目的
那时,它是个stainless steel戒指


接着接着的,接着
过了一年
我收到了,一个令我哭的戒指
眼泪像雨滴般,无论他多番的安慰,雨未停
内疚,我感动,我开心,我很多情绪涌上头
自己也分不清,只会哭
我内疚,那时的我太贪玩,但他还是狠下心决定买了它给我
我想。。。那时的他,很怕失去我也很爱我才会这样
我内疚,我的自私导致他崩溃
只想告诉你,我只是贪玩好奇这世界,才探了个头出去
我没他,别的用意


它比上上任送的小,但我却更珍惜
它试过在我们吵架时掉进引擎里,还得最后得拆车才取回
它试过被没收,好不容易,七上八下,哭到它回来
它试过被丢弃,只因为那时爱的前方太渺茫
它是他辛辛苦苦存钱买来的
它是他少娱乐,少吃好的,少打油为我换来的
那是他的能力,不对!是超出他能力为我换来的
我何能不哭,不珍惜?


这时的他以为它装上颗石头,叫钻石


没别的,它的,别的
你,你,你们都别想太多

,我只想说出我未说出口的话
,我只想说,有些事就是差了那么一秒,它的意义会变得好大,也可以很小
掏得出来呕不出那个肺,又怎样?
你们,看了就忘了吧!




Wednesday, December 23, 2009

LMAO & LYAO

Currently at mum's hometown celebrate Tang Yuan Festival. FYI, I'm at Seremban now since yesterday and i don't enjoy my day here at all. Don't really like grandma cooking style. It was full of oil. Its not because I'm on extremely diet that cant even afford a single sip of oil. The dishes are all soak in oil. Even when you eating vege, the oil is leaking at your lips. How terrible it is, can you imagine now?


Okay, but it was a tradition day that everyone must gather around and eat in ONE TABLE. What i ate yesterday were only STEAM EGG by my mum after i beg her few times. Hoho~I'm easy happy girl. I will be very happy already when my meal got egg. WheeHooo~


Was missing KL badly now. What's everyone doing there? Must be planning huge plan for Xmas Eve. Hohoho~Santa is coming real soon by tomorrow. Can't wait! I'm rushing back tomorrow NO MATTER WHAT for the house party!!! (Mangkali and MrJ...hope i wont disappointed you guys.) Oops, i get distract again, hop back to the title.


After packing all the stuff so i hop on the car...

While on the way and gonna reach petrol station, i was finding my slipper which i wear earlier. My mum was driving and my sis were sitting in front so i am the only one who sit behind. I COULD NOT FIND MY SLIPPER. It happen again!


Guess what? My slipper is not stolen by someone, so how it get disappear?








Ta-Daaa~ I left it at the parking lot before i get in the car. GREAT JOB!!!

It's not first time happen this. It's the second time already. The first were I'm on the way home from Port Dickson. That time i lost my beloved PUCCA (the china cartoon doll) slipper which bought from Thailand Phuket. That time i never realise till i reached home. I search all over the car, and the answer is...i left it there. DAMN SAD LOR~

The second time, NOW. It was better because i found it earlier. Hahah (a way to make myself feel better). My mum laugh her ass off so do my sister after they found out i did that again after few years again.

"Where's my slipper?" me
"Owh not again?" mum
"shit" me
"what happen to you?" mum
laughing non stop-me
"i cannot understand how can a people do that, again and again, are u sick or what?"
laugh madly-all of us


I don't know why i kept doing that...can anyone tell me why?


I'm like treating the car as my house, so i gotta remove my shoes before entering it. Oh gosh! Am i sick?


Another sui part. A lizard just crawl on my leg and i thought it was some mosquito that flying around me. So i use my hand to sweep it cause it's so tiny that you would not know till you look at it. DAMN! It drop on the floor! PIAK! I YELL for sure.


Wish for a better day tomorrow. (cross my finger)





Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Working days...gotta be motivate!

Bring my sista to work for the every first time today. Mum suppose to look after her but suddenly something came up. So i guess its ok to bring her along. Surprisingly the boss and her wife treat her very good. They like her. LOL.
There is 2 week more to go. Im getting kinda tired. I don't know why, when i get job offer, im happy, but when have to work for the whole thing more than 3 days. I get lazier and exhausted day by day. I complain a lot to him. And every time he tell me the same thing. "When you receive people paid, must be responsible. Still left few more days, go for it." With this, i finally manage to complete all te working days without 1 MC. Whoohoo~


What I'm working actually kinda easy job but boring. Its a job from 11am till 3pm. 4hours...very extremely super lame job!!!
Finally ts 3pm, bring sista joining Bubu for lunch after work at Face to Face Pan Mee. Da yumm~
Look at my sunshine egg yolk. Slurp~
Ate traditional pan mee in soup and mince pork dry pan mee. Yum Yum Yum!

Honestly, i hate working with my fringe. So not me!


On the way home, look what I've saw!!
A camp inside the house area? OMG! There is few thing pop up to my mind.
1. The husband do something wrongly and cause the wife get piss and hantam him sleep outside.
2. Father need to train his son that are going for camp soon.
3. They had nothing to do in their life and looking for some extra ordinary entertainment to spice up.

Besides that, the father is bringing his little son for a ride with his motor too...in that AREA ONLY. I wonder...isit that danger outside the world to them? Yea, I'm sure is.








Saturday, December 19, 2009

I-City Antique Car Event

For people who saw my picture on SIN CHEW that day, here's the post that you guys request for. =)
It took me ages to update this. Too many pictures and causing lag lag lag...


This the picture that appear on SIN CHEW that day. This is the Rolls Royce car owner Mr. Yong. Previous owner were one of the royal family member. Born in 1929. This model is one and only at M'sia. BTW, he own 10 antique car. Wow~
Woke up at 6am this morning, I'm so sleepy but make up took me loads of time especially when there is event to work for. Honestly, for the very first time i had no idea what event I'm working for. I asked the agent but she never told me, she said it was some Datuk birthday party just gotta pose and get paid. Sounds interesting right? But its stupid i know.



The sun just awake...

First event with my fringe...sobs~i look like a kid. The sky are still dark here.




Finally we reach there at 8am, we are actually working for Antique Car Show held by I City Sdn. Bhd. and Royal Antique and Classic Car Club.

Jane. Me. Angel



Jane with the most expensive car at the event. It belong to one of the Tan Sri there, forgotten who. This Merz took 1billion bought in and 1billion to rebuild by sending back to Greece. It took 3 years to fix it. DAMN!





Mini Bus is in one of the list of antique car too =)




With the cars












With Jane inside the car. Old style limousine.




Two spare tyres...LOL





The longest car in it. Took 2 kancil parking lot.






Sometime i just couldn't understand those people, they pay billions for manual, non air conditioner some more button control.


Cutest car of the day!






After the tiring posing and tanning under sun light, we sneak in to ice house for some cooling session. Look what I've found? Shortest and thinnest Santa ever!




Without leaf geh Xmas tree. Whee~another collection add in.






Swan lake...


Mr. Snowman













We are so in love...with here.







It was fake but still, we are so excited with it.

Everything is so pretty there.



Big fat Santa with me



Santa is dancing...



Long leg snowman





Jane...forgot to mention. She's the winner for Bosco Real assistant. Pretty huh~



Girls that working together


Channel Won and me



Only sports car in the event. Lowest of all...



Siam me or else I'm gonna knock you.





I wonder who's that ayam...


Surprisingly it's made by woods.




Sally and me



It was actually to promote local culture so 3 of the girls had to dress up in traditional costume.



Prester and me...she's only 16. Don't stunt...



Angel is here again.




3 culture girl


All the cars...




All the cars and owner in
group picture
















Jane with Channel



Took this picture accidently while she was taking picture from another angle.




Artificial natural snowing. LOL





While lying lazily...


Picture of the day! by Prester



Snow sticking on me








Sally getting mad!




Chloe



Both of them are cousin sister



I told ya, girls like snowing...









Photographer all over the place hunting for girl who willing to shoot for free. LOL.






And now...we are getting mad and playful.









Snow ball




Love Angel dress loads! From Nichi. Gonna hunt for it soon once im free.




I took this out from the decor. Just to fullfill my selfishness.
Wishing to get a pendant of this in Xmas. It will reminds me bout Xmas all the time. Warmth and sweet.


Baby i met that day, she like Jane more than me. I make her cry. ="(
Jane is so mother!



Its 2pm, finally can get rid of the sun tanning and move my ass to MV meeting Bubu there. I love when there is a job you can work and get paid and play!!! Whee~that's why i love working in event. Happening, happy, get to meet new babes and unlimited fun!!!



Crowd lining in cinema is so so so damn long. End up we dint catch any movie just went home after buying food from Jusco which is ready to eat on time. Sushi and junks.


Blur Bubu went Mv without any wax on his hair. Love*



Cute dumb ass. I used to call him in this way, at first he don't really like it and complain a lot. But now, if one day i dint call him that, he will feel uncomfortable. LOL. Believe or not, its a fact that surprise me.


This is what you told me. "I love you as you love me." Remember...always~



While watching drama with lappie and eating nasi lemak with fried chicken, some fat ass is afraid to appear in the picture. Siam~