WHAT IS "dear" FOR?

I'm tiring...tiring that i doesn't belongs to who and been kept calling by others "dear"
it suppose to be a friendly name that ppl used to called their friends and buddies
but i don't seems this happen on me
i don't feel they are my buddies or i am theirs buddies
i don't know them for long so do they

this "name" was hidden another meaning that i don't feel comfortable with
i told most of them many times that i have a name and its TIFFANY why don't you just call my name? end up, is the same. in the msg or the conversation..."dear, xxxxxxxx......"

don't u guys know or feel that i am so sooo uncomfortable with it?
don't u realise that i get speechless after that?
u guys just don't understand but just acting selfish-ly
or maybe u all understand it but u don't care how i feel...that's rude!

i am not that open-minded i admit
but I'm friendly enough to call u dear when the time is reach
but i do like make things clear like water
so no one get misunderstand and hard feelings in the end

i demand for love and relationship, but not miserable ones...

too all beloved "dear"
by ur "dear"