I DREAMed BOUT him LAST NIGHT

he left at last thur to melbourne...

before he left, he text me

"Im leaving later. i cant even sleep well. i really miss u...what i do everyday makes me think of u. i know u got bf d. anyway, wana tell u that...yi, i love u. really love u! take care"

since so long, i had never dreamed about him

but then its quite weird u know

and actually, when i peep on his mail and found out his leaving to melbourne

i actually planed to snd him at the airport by giving him a suprise

but this only happen when i still wanted so much to be with him together

it was 2mth ago

things change that fast.

u will never noticed

before this 2mth, i was still a naive gal

with simple thinking, not hoping for wealth guy

just a guy that with a sincere heart and love me lots

thats a perfect for me

but now, i dont see there is still a sincere guy living on the street

got! but not belongs to me for now, who knows when it came to future...zero posibility

sometime, i hope all this end up by a marriage

that time...no u-turn

its a clear ending might having regret, but there is no more turning back

that time, u dun even have to think so much anymore

the dream was not romantic at all

no argue

was all in peace

in the scene...shows

he come and find me at dont know where

then he said he miss me

i said "haiyo, dun lik that la

although im single now, but i've found that i dont really need a bf u know

now like that be friends not good meh?"

when i woke up, kinda blurr

when i jog in the morning with frens, this kept turning in my mind

what happen to me in that dream?

what makes me say that in my dream?

for so long, confusion always hunt me down

im always so confuse bout what i did

isit right? or wrong?

i might thought it will be better sometimes, but few min later, it'll change suddenly

i miss the day, but i hate the lies as well

i feel the sadness, but i miss the memory as well

i miss him, but things just aint that simple to me

i've been so damn suffer for the 2mth plus

but im glad that always supported by u all

especially miss X, mister J, mister K

i wont talk to u face to face for this...malu want err

but really...deep in my heart

because of u all, im still standing here

when i almost reach the end of the road in tons of negative thinking

u all are the one to pull me back

to let me rely, to let me cried, to let me blame, to let me yelled at

from the tougher part till now...

im glad!

maybe as the 2mister and one missy says

---it takes time--