X'mas makes me EXCITED!!!

Movie with Kent again. Well, i think i know what he's gonna say when i jump up the car.

Not surprise at all, he said this "Why you go to cut this hair? I don't understand nowadays what the girl think even they knew the guy don't like girls with fringe but they still cut it."

Anything i did seems wrong here???

Drool for PUDU spinach noodle again because i wanna be POPEYE the SAILOR MAN.

Here's my noodle with darling Fu Zhuk Barley and big prawn dumpling. Yum-may~

Since MrK had bought the ticket earlier so no worries and rushing for today. I pay a visit for every single Xmas decor. GENG mou? When i reached LG i saw this Xmas tree up there and IT IS TURNING!!! No play play wooi~


LG floor is decorate with a lots of snow man as well as house cover with snows. Getting real excited already and pull him over like a kid. Lol, like its really snowing now.

Look at this well! Its full of pressie~

Forgive for the blur picture, its taken by the lousy photographer.

I hope it was real so that i could pick up some...

OMG!!! is he trying to suicide?

Oh no!!! He's trying to kill himself. Please don't mister...everything can be solve. Just share with me and don't do stupid thing please...i beg u!

Heheheheheh~well. That is not the real story.

Here you go. When i was cam whoring with the well that full with pressie, damn excited, imagine that all the pressie is real and i left my camera holder beside the well.

Then, Oppsie Daisie MA-MA-MIA.

My hand just push it in TO THE WELL. Then... get stunt and he looked at me. I said my camera thingie drop. He called the guard came but no use. The guard can't move the well or either carried up even it's made with something light. No idea what to do but just kept looking inside the well with moody sad face. Passerby there thought there really got gold and peep on the well. LOL. Then i lend the hanger from some shops nearby then K dig from the well with his half body in. I kept laughing non stop like insane.

So that's why it look like he's trying to suicide.
But but but...still had to give him a big kiss for helping me, or else my pinkie will lost her partner because stingy like me won't get her a new partner i guess...

He said he's angry me but still he's taking picture for me. Hurrah!

Why Santa left it here?

I guess he went for test drive at MERZ now since its time to change new one. No deer pulling it how it gonna run? Every time gotta beg the deer, he get piss. XD

That's the TURNING CHRISTMAS TREE I'm saying since the beginning! Impressive huh!
I'm giving myself a mission now...is...took as much as possible picture that related with X'mas (of course different location). This year, for don't know what reason. I'm addicted with it. Hmnn~

Its time to go for movie but still...i can't leave the tree alone.

Whoa~big, huge, long, crowd. DAMN! But it's worth for it to wait. Besides the reason you had pay for it...also is because.....

I'm watching TWILIGHT!!!

I bet i need not to intro it. All of you guys had watch it earlier then me. So...leave it.
I'm just wondering why some of them said that the first episode was nicer? Both are AWESOME for me. Jacob is so MACHO!!! Love him with short hair=)

Even K is jealous with his big breast. I mean...you know~


Yummie guy makes girl drool! Especially when they are good, loyal and with super power some more. Whoohoo~

You know, girls always feeling insecure. Guys gotta had patience with them and talk a lot to comfort them. When PMS, things getting worse for no reason. Someone told me that's women priority. Whee~and is a guy who told me. LOVE LOVE!!!

If only he's the one. I will hold him tight and never let him go. I swear to heaven and hell.

I'm emo and troublesome girl, i don't really need guy with macho body, very very incredible good looking, sweet talk non stop. I just need him to be patience with me, loyal & honest & sincere (every r/s need this) and of course not to forget a bed time story when i act like a little girl and a sweet smile on your face when i act like a old lady nag at you non stop. That's all. Simple enough?

Opps, forgot some. He must be a big eater but not fat ass that's gonna had trouble when exercise. I love sports so...that's why N-O! I don't mind chubby and spare tayar but 2 layer is enough for me. ;p

He gotta be big eater is because...i love food so much but i can't finish eat most of the time after ordering too much. So...it's his job. *wink

Forgot about the height. Minimum mini minimum~

174cm please~
If you don't have it. Please blame the one who invented high heels. Not me!

Oh yaya~one last thing. Due to some unhappy moment in high school, therefore i don't really mix with girls much besides my own gang. Till now, it happen in same way. I got lotsa boy friend which i call them ji mui as well.

So if you just can't control your jealousy and like a bitch who had PMS all the time.

So sorry to say so, YOU ARE NOT THE ONE.

I love you but i love him tooooo~

DEAL or NO DEAL?

Its All About My New Hair Cut

Noon time, so effing bored and emo. So i went Jaya One to search for the buddies.
The Ex came Jaya One to cheer me up. Thanks a lot =)

Well, surprisingly he were still that caring. I'm glad that he is still here when i really need a ear to blame on. I'm sorry for the previous post. Opps~

Same choice =)

Look~even Jaya One has X'mas decorations too. Looks like Santa is arriving soon. Whee~




Taken by the lousy photographer =.= but still i like this.

That day we dint really talk much, but deep. It just came in natural like last time, I don't mention all the things out but he know what I'm actually thinking.

I guess i never changed since last broke up. Still that stubborn.




If you guys still miss this look better look more of this pic even its ugly...
because soon...its gone!

I'm kinda emo, emo, emo...and sitting at the saloon there turning around and shout since no customer at that moment. Then Joseph and Caesar just clip on my hair and put cloth on it. Damn! They wanted to cut my hair and i was just whispering to myself "should i???" only...

Chik-Chak, i scream for a moment but no one care about it. So...let it be.

After hair cut, time to touch up the hair colour.
Something burning my head...gosh! Its hot!

I guess its LAVENDER colour he apply~i don't really care what he did because he's pro, I'm not and he know more not me.
Leave it~

Jiang Jiang Jiang. Jiang~Im done!!!
Wanna know what's the new look behind those grossy hair?

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Its a fringe only~LOL
Kawaii neh~I feel like old lady eating Lollipop now. Shit!!!

Dear Joseph and me with his masterpiece
I admire his nose a lot and i always say so, but he tell me that's a man nose. LOL

Found this cupid or angel...it reminds me of the movie "NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2"
So cute when the 3 little thing were singing...sweet!

Time for dinner and perhaps a gathering?
So sad that Jason dint hang along, that dumb say dinner with family worr. Such a family man~LOL

Was wondering...how will my mum and dad and sis and friend and blah react when they see me in this? Before the Ex leave he did even ask me not to be stupid to cut it to fringe. LOL~

No matter how i pose like previous, it is so not me okay! But however, Joseph because of you i did feel a little of being reborn. You let me feel that I'm still young. XD

Silly Molly cam whore pic of me and miss fringe ;p

Without the fridge i think this pic will definitely look better.
Now...its like small kiddie acting as women.

No idea where to hang at...but MILO is kept turning on my mind. Where's the best MILO from?

STEVEN'S CORNER lahhhh

I love mamak food a lots!!! Besides pan mee, i can eat tosai, Maggie, chapati for a week too!

You just cant feel what I'm feeling right now. After a month break up with my MILO. Finally, i had him back!!! Damn excited la!! Perhaps you should see Coke adv...the new in cinema one. Then you guys will understand how i feel now.

When hair stylist met hairstylist.
The topic cant run away from HAIR

Never mind if they had forgotten me. I got my MILO. So everything its OK... =)

When I'm home, sista open the door for me. She was shock and yell "jie~"!

When i walked in, mum saw me and she drop her jaws and stuck.

Aunt saw me and say "not so cute geh people cut this hair?"

Kent saw me the other day "What makes you gone mad and do stupid thing?"

He knew it earlier i had hair cut but still when he saw me that day we went night market and he said "You look so much younger like 16."

See, told ya. It will happen as i said.

Am i suppose to be happy with all these feedback's?

I've missed a lot

I dint noticed I've missed a lot until i flipped through friends blog and Facebook album.


Like I'm standing so far away from them.



I saw they went gathering together, they went night market together, they had McDee together, they celebrate birthday together...everything TOGETHER!



What happen to me? Why am i not there? Why they did not ask me along? I keep on thinking about it with a sour feel inside my heart. Last, i scroll my phone message inbox. Its not that they dint ask me along but i was busy with job, busy with others stuff and college. Owh god~ hate myself right now.



Some they did inform me earlier like few months ago but at the end. I did the same thing again. I FFK last minute. Some of my job are last minute, i can't control when they came but I'm sure that i can control whether i should take it or not. I dint and that's why i hate myself right now for being left behind.



Since primary school till high school and now college, i don't know why...i don't really like to simply mix around with peoples. I guess i had some disease. LOL. I've been kinda picky on my friend. I mean close friend. That's why gang i always mix around are not more then 5? People who can really talk with me, i mean dig my heart out...not much. I guess i seal my self off seriously. I've found that people could really fake!!! Real fake!!! Now they could smile to you and even treat you nice drink and help you to do your stuff (willingly), then in few seconds later...whoohoo! They will said that you force them to do so. WTH! I thought it was a help from TRUE FRIEND? It is not as i found out later, it was just a way to create something out from me. Fuck to all the bicthes that do so before. Glad that you all still survive =) Should really take care yourself carefully. Im not really a person with strong religion view but i always believe that what we do, what we get back. KARMA. Heard?



Opps, I've drag too far. Where am i now? XD



High school is the greatest moment in my life i guess. Everyone is sticking together. We can easily date each other for lunch or movie...not even using a single penny for sending sms or electricity fee and Internet cost for using Facebook. We just hop in to the class when recess and done. Movie always happen when we had class dismiss earlier, we will wear our uniform for outing. Attentions we get and we feel awkward but with the badge of CHONG HWA INDEPENDENT HIGH SCHOOL. We feel only proud. Agree buddies? (What am i saying??)

Unlike now, a lunch date could be drag for a month time. Cancel, re-book...kept recycle. Damn! Even a movie outing is more hard! Phew~

Everyone is busy with their stuff. Whoever who don't continue their studies will busy for working, people who in college. What else? Just like you and me, forever undone assignment and coursework. Exhausted.


I've missed a lot and I miss you peeps!!!

你不知道，却须知 《女人》

你可知道 要女人清晨醒來淩亂的面對一個愛的人是需要有很大的勇氣

你可知道 當女人被男人脫去自己的衣服一絲不掛的在他面前是需要多少的愛

你可知道 女人為什麼會背朝你睡
因為她不喜歡看你的背影
如果你以後抱著她睡她會安心一整個晚上

你可知道 女人把每一次的愛情當作是初戀也是這輩子最後一個來愛

你可知道 女人那麼愛吃醋不是因為不相信你
而是你在她心中太美好她不希望這種美好倒映在別的女人眼中

你可知道深愛你的女人在沖你發火以後自己卻轉身不斷啜泣

你可知道 當女人頂著哭花的臉走在街上
不管是不是有人在看她時她的心已經快要死了

你可知道 她只會對她愛的男人嘮叨
也只會對她在乎的人耍性子

你可知道她的任性 她的壞脾氣
其實都只是在對你撒嬌 希望你更重視她

你可知道 假若她不愛你
她根本不會對你發火 不會希望你去哄她 更不會為你掉眼淚
因為她不愛的人沒那本事

你可知道 當你離開她留下她獨自一人
她有多大的期待和恐懼 而這一切都只是因為她愛你 而這一切都因為你還不夠懂她

女人知道太多不該知道的事情
男人不知道太多該知道的事情於是，
你們爭吵，你認為她脾氣不好，她認為你不夠遷就她……
於是，你們冷戰，
你以為她沒有完全接受你，她以為你不在乎她……

請給她一個擁抱一個吻，用你的擁抱你的吻去化解她心裏的悲傷和眼角的淚水。
因為她只是害怕你的冷漠、轉身和安靜。。。。。。。。。。
兩個深愛的人在一起，就要互相包容，互相理解，互相體諒，互相信任，否則當你們真正失去時將會遺憾終生。。。。。。否則美好的未來也就在你們自己手中泯滅了！

希望每一個男人都能夠好好珍惜陪伴在你身邊的女人她們為你付出過，
不求回報卻希望你們能夠讀懂，能夠牽著她們的手堅定地走下去
不要讓愛你的女人流淚
不要讓她傷心
更不要讓她絕望和死心！
因為女人一旦真愛了，失去她愛著的人就意味著失去了整個世界...


女孩子20歲左右是她最美麗的。
這時她的心地最善良，她有點成熟，又有點孩子氣。
男孩子20左右的時候是他最暗淡的日子，
這時什麼都沒有，不能獨立又不想依賴，掙紮著彷徨著，尋找著自己的位置，
所以如果一個男孩子在他20歲左右的時候遇見了與他年紀相當的女孩子，那一定要珍惜她，因為這個女孩子是用用自己最美麗的年華陪他走過了最暗淡的日子！

女孩只有陪他走過，女孩將永遠幸福下去。
應該每個女孩都會身同感受吧..女孩們的付出..到底有多少男孩能看得到?
他們又願意花多少時間去理解?



我只想讓些粗心大意的男生了解女生的想法而已..

December 2009

There the door bell rang...Ding Dong~
December just arrived at your door step.

You've known it earlier and you were excited before this.

Now, you got nothing. You upset and you were hoping the time flies back to the day you were wishing it to arrive.

It just couldn't be my dear. It is too late.You know it.

Always a fact.

You were happy December came because Christmas is coming, salary is gonna paid adding up with bonus, New Year is coming and it was a new start, birthday was around the corner and gonna bomb you up with loads of present, year end sale is here and you gonna shop in a better price for the stuff you dream for the whole year...too many thoughts.

Some you did you get, but where is some you've not?

You had done nothing and you thought December will be pending to wait till you're done?

Naive

Most of the people set themselves a target, especially when year end is around the corner.

I bet that, 88% fail it. You agree with me? I know you do, you can't run.

It was a answer that we both had in our heart. There is too much thing we want, but too less thing we did for it.

In my whole life after December 2008. I get graduate from A Level's, but i dint do it great honestly. I was stuck in weird behaviour and emotional problem due to the break up. I never stay at home often because I'm afraid to do so. Memory will hunt me down whenever I'm home and i got no one to talk to. I feel like tearing my scalp off seriously. I get out every night until i got no where to hang then I'm home again. Yelling at the room, half meal per day or not even one, never sleep but looking at the wall, hate him every single second...blah. However, i feel great that i did survive till now. Mom were sad, sister were sad, I'm so skinny that time that people thought I'm a kid which is only 12-16 even I'm with light make up. I was wondering, is the youngster nowadays too matured or my problem?

Then, i get really hardworking in my job. Try to gain more exposure from none till now. I'm not saying that I'm huge or famous, but when you got nothing and you did gain it with your own effort, you will know what I'm saying. Just imagine that, before that you were standing below the sun for some photoshooting but its unpaid but you still gotta do it well. Now, is people who offer you with a price and you get to decided to take it or leave it if you are not happy with the price. When you got no job offer, 10hours per day were paying you only Rm80 you will still do it, because you need job experience. Now it was different, per day Rm200 you might still feel there is something not worthy. That's the gap I'm saying.

People easily forget where they came from. Once people climb higher, they had amnesia.

This are realistic people, no why. Included me.

Then, my grandma pass away. It was the tougher day i had to feel it which i hope it wasn't real. The moment I'm holding her hand and feel that her temperature is getting cold and her breathing is getting slow till none. The worse part is when i saw the heartbeat is dropping fast...my tears drop fast and faster till unstoppable. She's really gone while I'm still holding her hand at home. We all did know that she's going to be "gone" but I'm actually hoping...she could stay longer. Family having big problem when she's gone. Almost tear us apart. Helpless again. I'm alone and not strong enough to face this. But luckily there is a HIM appear at that moment, a shoulder which is wide enough to let me lean on, a body is strong enough to let me pound on, a ear is patience enough to hear me even I'm only whispering in my heart. Those sleepless night, he was always there to talk with me until i could sleep. I'm glad for what he did. I'm glad when i receive the bad news, he were there just on time to give me a hug to let me know I'm not alone. I'm glad when i had no one to cry on, he were there beside the phone even i had nothing to talk but just crying, he will not hang up the phone.

In a blink of eyes, 300+ days just gone like that. It was like yesterday we just celebrate Valentine, listening Chinese New Year songs, last Christmas perfume gift box haven't even opened, new book is full with dust...but where is all the time gone?

This mysterious case happen once in a year, they just evaporate without a noticed.

When New Year Eve party end, a few glasses of alcohol inside the tummy, you shout to the world this year you gonna buy a car, you gonna loose 30 pounds, you gonna get straight A's, you gonna travel around the world, but how many people can really write a "EXCELLENT" in your self evaluate and appraise report of 2009?

Mostly were "tiger head snake tail" or stop at the half way or giving reason of busy...too busy. That's why 30 pounds target turn to 3 pounds or maybe gain more, travel around the world turn to only Genting. That's why, this year i don't damn dare to say all those big dreams anymore. I'm only wishing tiny bitsie things, so that when happen Tsunami, i got gut to say "Come on. I got nothing to regret!" LOL

However, your own life, your own way, you happy.

The Boy Friend which is not Boyfriend.

Every girl are surrounded by a guy which looks like her boyfriend but he's not
They may in love with each other, they might like each other
However, they dint get a chance to get together for some reason.


It may be, because of the code of brotherhood, he can't go any further
It may be, he cares about his family opinion, they can't get together
It may be, he had to further his education is somewhere else, he did not ask you to wait for him
It may be, they met when both were too young, still don't know how to cherish each other

It may be, they bump in each other life too late, there is a him/her already beside

It may be, you went back too late, he/she is no longer waiting for you

It may be, they were trying to know what she/he is thinking until didn't took the first step

Even you and him dint get in relationship, you all were still friend.

But deep inside your heart both of you clearly know that, you treat him/her is a little bit more compare to a friend.

Even though you all cant holding hands walking around,

they were still friends that chit-chatting until late night.

He say that he likes a girl, you say you will help him to get the girl heart,

inside your heart, you know that this isn't what you want.

When he's in trouble, you will try all your best to help him,

will not care about the tiny tipsy thing.

Girlfriend or boyfriend are jealous, you will comfort them by telling them you guys were just friend,

but the heart is still shaking with the answer

Every people in this life, deep inside the heart will also have a special friend like this, confusing one.


At the beginning, you felt struggle for being just a friend, but when time past, you found that this is the best way to be.

You will prefer to care about him in this way, its better than if get in relationship and broke up one day.

You prefer to be his friend, never jealous on each other, then only can talk without a limit

With this, you will still know, he will always care about you.